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memories of her

i have all these memories… when i’m in the bathtub i keep remembering everything. i think to myself… ‘it was so childish, yet so mature.’ felt so sweet, her expressions…

i ask myself, why? almost two years have gone by. why do i keep thinking of her? even dough she told me she fell in love with some other guy after we broke up. still…

am i sick? is it because i don’t make out with other girls that much? should i try and find someone? start a relationship? will i stop remembering it so often? don’t think i want that. i’ll just stay single forever, pray for her happiness and live my life remembering her. haha, i’ll just jerk off from time to time… and cry myself to sleep… imagining that someone else is with her in bed.

i don’t know, honestly… how can i love someone else? if just by remembering the one bath we took… (…) imagine all the rest… remembering all the rest… just makes it impossible to stop loving her.

i hate myself more and more each day for what i said to her when we broke up.

lied to her… and to myself.


does she remember me?
does she think of me? even just a little…

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“Asas Que Me Deste”

Dois espinhos pregados nas costas
Com raízes ao coração
Foram perguntas sem respostas,
Tremores e oscilação.

Memórias é tudo o que resta
Com o teu rosto apagado
Não tenho dois dedos de testa
Mas não estou preocupado.

Acreditar em amor eterno
Talvez já seja coisa do passado
À de ser o meu inferno,
Destino nunca terminado.

Amo-te e sempre vou amar
O sentimento é impossivel alterar
Meu coração só é da proxima
Que o teu amor superar

Dois espinhos pregados nas costas
Com raízes ao coração
Ambos em sementes se transformam.
E mais tarde de flor asas são.

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“How Do I Breathe”

mario_go_How do I breathe, yeah?
How do I breathe, yeah?

[Verse:]
It feels so different being here,
I was so used to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There’s no one to turn to.
I don’t know why I let it go too far,
Starting over – it’s so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.

[Hook:]
I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not to blame at all.
when I’m the one that pushed you away.
Baby if you knew I cared,
You’d have never went nowhere (nowhere),
Girl I should’ve been right there.

[Chorus:]
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

[Verse:]
Girl I’m losin’ my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad, I can’t sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
God this can’t be happening.

[Hook:]
I just had a wake up call (call),
Wishing that I never let you fall (fall),
Baby you are not to blame at all.
When I’m the one that pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared (cared),
You’d have never went nowhere (nowhere),
Girl I should’ve been right there.

[Chorus:]
(And I wonder…)
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me (I’m saying),
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

[Verse:]
I can’t get over you, no
Baby I don’t wanna let go, no
Girl you need to come home
Girl come back to me
‘Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
When you’re not with me.

[Chorus:]
(Tell me)
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go (where do I, where do I go)
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me,
How do I breathe?

How do I breathe?
[Some speaking starts]
Without you here by my side?
How will I see (how will I see)
When your love brought me to the light (baby, baby)?
Where do I go (where do)
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me (you’re not with me),
How do I breathe (how do I breathe)?
How do I breathe?

Mario Barrett (Singer)
“How Do I Breathe” (Song)
Go (Album)
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“Do You”

ne-yo_because_of_youMaybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don’t care what I have to say.
But it’s been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I’m trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can’t be.
I’ll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congratulations.
Heard that you just had a baby girl.
If she looks anything like her mother,
She’s the prettiest thing in the world.
Swear that I’m not tryin’ to start no trouble.
Tell your fiance he can relax.
I’ll leave you alone for good I promise,
There’s a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don’t mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Ne-Yo (Singer)
“Do You” (Song)
Because Of You (Album)
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“I Miss You”

blink_182_blink_182(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We’ll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we’ll wish this never ends
We’ll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you and I’m so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don’t waste your time on me you’re already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]

(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]

blink-182 (Band)
“I Miss You” (Song)
blink-182 (Album)
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“When You’re Mad”

ne-yo_in_my_own_wordsIt’s just the cutest thing
When you get to fussing (cussing)
Yelling and throwing things
I just wanna eat you up
I don’t mean no disrespect
When I start staring
Knowing that it makes you madder (uh, oh)
I’m sorry but seeing you mad is so sexy

[Hook]
Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil’ way you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain’t sure, but one thing that I do know is

[Chorus]
Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy
When you’re mad

Baby, don’t think I don’t take you seriously
But I just can’t help the fact that your attitude excites me (so exciting)
And you know ain’t nothing better
Then when we get
Mad together and have angry sex (I’ll blow you out)
Then we forget what we were mad about

[Hook]
Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil’ way you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I’m not sure, but one thing that I do know is

[Chorus 2x]
Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy

Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy
When you’re mad

Ne-Yo (Singer)
“When You’re Mad” (Song)
In My Own Words (Album)
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“Lágrimas são Vento”

Existem lágrimas
Que são como o vento
Não conseguimos vê-las
Mas senti-mo-las cá dentro

Uma vontade do Passado
Para conseguir o Presente
Erros do alcançado
Pagos num futuramente

Assombrações por intervalo
E dúvidas sem fim
Ela não conseguiu perdoa-lo
E esqueceu-se de mim

Como é que em,
Tão curto tempo,
Passou a ser de ninguém
Esse precioso sentimento?

Sou retardado e jumento
Pois nem daqui tão cedo
Cairá no esquecimento
O que disseste sem medo…

Menina olhos cor pôr-do-Sol…

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“Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape”

underoath-theyre_only_chasing_safetyI heard a voice through the discord”
Of a deluge of passersby.
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by.

I swear I’ll know your face in the crowd,
And I’ll hear your voice so loud
When you’re whispering…

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Here’s my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I’ve lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.

Hey unloving

I will love you

Jesus I’m ready to come home.

Underoath (Band)
“Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape” (Song)
They’re Only Chasing Safety (Album)
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“‘Cause To Love You”

fingertips_catharsisWhen I’m feeling down
Nothing seems ok
I see her eyes and I believe I’ll find a way

When I’m feeling down
Things don’t go so well
I see her eyes and I forget the tears that fell

When I’m alone in the street
And I’m scared and tired
For the first time in my whole life I felt desire

When I’m far from home
And I just don’t want to be found
I run into your arms and they bring my feet back to
the ground!

CHORUS
‘Cause to love you means so much more (2x)
When I need to cry you make me try
I want to die and ask me why
‘Cause I can’t fight no more

When I’m feeling down
Nothing seems ok
I see her eyes and I believe..
we’ll find a way

I’m alone in the street
And I’m scared and tired
For the first time in my whole life I felt desire
When I’m far from home
And I just don’t want to be found
I run into your arms and they bring my feet back to
the ground!

CHORUS (2x)

‘Cause to love you means so much more (2x)

CHORUS

‘Cause to love you means so much more (2x)

When I wanted to stop
When I wanted to fail
I saw your eyes and I believed there’s so much more…

So much more… so much more…

Fingertips (Band)
“‘Cause To Love You” (Song)
Catharsis (Album)
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Teoria de Amar

Ter uma relação séria não é construir um castelo na praia ou escrever um nome na areia. O vento ou a água do mar passam e levam tudo. Não é uma árvore no Outono, carregada de folhas secas que à força de um sopro se espalham no chão e a deixam totalmente despida. Pronta para que lhe nasçam bonitas folhas verdes novamente. Não é como um lago. Que mesmo depois de muita agitação imposta pela esteira dos barcos ou pelas ondas dos mergulhos dos sapos se volta a compor, tranquilo e quieto, como se nada se tivesse passado. Não é tudo assim tão simples. A meu ver é mais parecido com um ferido de guerra, cujas cicatrizes, provocadas por cortes de balas quentes e lâminas frias se mantêm por anos ou, na maioria dos casos, nem sequer chegam a desaparecer, por muito escondidas ou disfarçadas que tentemos torna-las aos olhos dos outros. Amar leva muito tempo e esquecer então, leva muito mais. Não sou nenhum Fernando Pessoa, bem o queria ser, para conseguir exprimir bem o que sinto ou o que finjo sentir. Também não sou um Camões, para dar uma definição deliciosa, quase perfeita, do que é o amor ou do quer é amor. Infelizmente, não sou. Sei que todos somos diferentes uns dos outros mas… Vivo numa época demasiada avançada para mim, certos princípios e sentimentos não são tão verdadeiros para a maioria das pessoas como são para mim. Mentalidades avançadas e despreocupadas. Sim nesse aspecto sou um completo atrasado. Peço desculpa a mim próprio e a todos, mas ainda não sei o que é paixão, nem o que é amor e muito menos o que é amar. Pensei estar no caminho certo, sentia estar perto, mas no fim são tudo ilusões. Vou continuar a tentar descobrir, com vontade de desistir, mas quem sabe neste mundo tão avançado, um dia não descubro aquilo que tenho procurado.