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this past months…

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heya, how’s it going?
man… haven’t been around much i guess.. my excuses? none. laziness, maybe? ye, that would probably be the 1st one, but even if i told you the rest… don’t think you’d believe me. too much shit happened this past 6/7 months… well, i’m not gonna write anything about it, not now. guess if it comes to head, i’ll post a shit or two i’ve written… yes… i know i’m too lazy, i like to write in paper, whatever. anyway, this post is just me “looking” back on this past few months and breathing out on full lungs, just… well, just… letting it all out… something like that, i guess. and to show that i haven’t died yet, haha!

ps: i’ll leave you my current wallpaper as a simbol of… stupidity? something like that. later, see you around.

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“What’s A Man To Do”

here_i_stand_usherOhh Ohh Ohhh Oohhh
Ohh Ohh Ohhh

Yeah

Listen

I’d be a liar if I told you
That I didn´t see it comin’
I’d be more of a liar if I said:
Hey, I didn’t want it to be something.

You deserve much better
For the love that you have shared
I know u won’t believe it
But girl I swear

That I got love for you,
Big love for you,
Even when I’m trippin’,
The fact remains that you
Will always be my baby, my baby

But dig the truth,
Baby dig the truth
I can’t hide my feelings

Especially when the whole world can see

That my heart
Is in two different places:

I got you in my life
And I wanna do right
But it´s hard to let it go

When my love has two different faces
And I can’t break ties
’cause they both look right.
Someone tell me

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
And he don´t wanna lie
But he can´t tell the truth

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
But he can´t keep his heart
In two different places
(in two different places)

I know you feel it
‘Cause you stayed
There is much more to the story

But I’d be a fool to say
I trust that I´m always gonna love her

You know that you don’t wanna hear
How I´m livin’ on the edge, baby
So I just say “YEAH, BABY”

She ain´t nothing,
But she is real
But why I take her through it

When I still got love for you,
Big love for you
Even when I’m trippin’,
The fact remains that you
Will always be my baby, my baby

But dig the truth,
Baby dig the truth
I can’t hide my feelings
Especially when the whole world can see

That my heart is in two different places:

I got you in my life
And I wanna do right
But it´s hard to let it go

When my love has two different faces
And I can’t break ties cause they both look right.

Someone tell me

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
And he don´t wanna lie
But he can´t tell the truth

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
But he can’t keep his heart
In two different places
(not in two different places)

I wanna tell you it’s over
And that I ain´t thinkin’ of her
I wanna really mean it
And I want you to see it
That I really try to leave her behind
And I´m tryin’ not to make you cry
I wanna tell you
That I ain’t playin’ games
And I´m dedicated
To receive a change but
When I look in the mirror
It´s the same old me

That my heart
Is in two different places:

I got you in my life
And I wanna do right
But it´s hard to let it go

When my love has two different faces
And I can’t break ties
Cause they both look right.
Someone tell me

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
And he don´t wanna lie (wanna lie)
But he can´t tell the truth

What’s a man to do
When he’s loving two.
But he can’t keep his heart
In two different places
(not in two different places)
Not in two different places.

Usher (Band/Artist)
“What’s A Man To Do” (Songs)
Here I Stand (Album)
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“Moving Mountains”

here_i_stand_usherIt’s like whatever I do
Ooh
I Just can’t get through you
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh
I loved it when you said there was nothin wrong
ohh
listen

[Verse 1:]
Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can’t be found
I lost my way, she said she’d stay
And lately I’ve been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back

[Chorus:]
I know sorries, just wouldn’t do it
Her heart is obliterated, I’m trying to travel through
But it’s like moving mountains…
It’s like moving mountains… hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It’s like moving mountains…
It’s like moving mountains…
Why just leave me, just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, Be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

[Verse 2:]
She, she don’t touch me, I don’t touch her
We aint really even ever say a word.
I really want to give her everything she deserves
But, the bad took away the good
She thinks that I’m full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I’m tired
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I’m trying
You never believe me when I say, and I never believe it when you say
I love you, and I shouldn’t complain about it
I should take it like a man and walk up out it
Cause we will never be the same ooh
I’ve been standing in gas, and you have been the flames

[Chorus]
I know sorries, just wouldn’t do it
Her heart is obliterated, I’m trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain, yeah
It’s like moving mountains… hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It’s like moving mountains…
It’s like moving mountains…
why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
why you just, just leave me, be
why you just leave me
Be ooh

[Background singing]

I know sorries, just wouldn’t do it
Her heart is obliterated, I’m trying travel through
But it’s like moving mountains…
It’s like moving mountains… hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It’s like moving mountains…
It’s like moving mountains…
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

Usher (Band/Artist)
“Moving Mountains” (Songs)
Here I Stand (Album)
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memories of her

i have all these memories… when i’m in the bathtub i keep remembering everything. i think to myself… ‘it was so childish, yet so mature.’ felt so sweet, her expressions…

i ask myself, why? almost two years have gone by. why do i keep thinking of her? even dough she told me she fell in love with some other guy after we broke up. still…

am i sick? is it because i don’t make out with other girls that much? should i try and find someone? start a relationship? will i stop remembering it so often? don’t think i want that. i’ll just stay single forever, pray for her happiness and live my life remembering her. haha, i’ll just jerk off from time to time… and cry myself to sleep… imagining that someone else is with her in bed.

i don’t know, honestly… how can i love someone else? if just by remembering the one bath we took… (…) imagine all the rest… remembering all the rest… just makes it impossible to stop loving her.

i hate myself more and more each day for what i said to her when we broke up.

lied to her… and to myself.


does she remember me?
does she think of me? even just a little…

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“Asas Que Me Deste”

Dois espinhos pregados nas costas
Com raízes ao coração
Foram perguntas sem respostas,
Tremores e oscilação.

Memórias é tudo o que resta
Com o teu rosto apagado
Não tenho dois dedos de testa
Mas não estou preocupado.

Acreditar em amor eterno
Talvez já seja coisa do passado
À de ser o meu inferno,
Destino nunca terminado.

Amo-te e sempre vou amar
O sentimento é impossivel alterar
Meu coração só é da proxima
Que o teu amor superar

Dois espinhos pregados nas costas
Com raízes ao coração
Ambos em sementes se transformam.
E mais tarde de flor asas são.

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“How Do I Breathe”

mario_go_How do I breathe, yeah?
How do I breathe, yeah?

[Verse:]
It feels so different being here,
I was so used to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There’s no one to turn to.
I don’t know why I let it go too far,
Starting over – it’s so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.

[Hook:]
I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not to blame at all.
when I’m the one that pushed you away.
Baby if you knew I cared,
You’d have never went nowhere (nowhere),
Girl I should’ve been right there.

[Chorus:]
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

[Verse:]
Girl I’m losin’ my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad, I can’t sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
God this can’t be happening.

[Hook:]
I just had a wake up call (call),
Wishing that I never let you fall (fall),
Baby you are not to blame at all.
When I’m the one that pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared (cared),
You’d have never went nowhere (nowhere),
Girl I should’ve been right there.

[Chorus:]
(And I wonder…)
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me (I’m saying),
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

[Verse:]
I can’t get over you, no
Baby I don’t wanna let go, no
Girl you need to come home
Girl come back to me
‘Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
When you’re not with me.

[Chorus:]
(Tell me)
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go (where do I, where do I go)
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me,
How do I breathe?

How do I breathe?
[Some speaking starts]
Without you here by my side?
How will I see (how will I see)
When your love brought me to the light (baby, baby)?
Where do I go (where do)
When your heart’s where I lay my head?
When you’re not with me (you’re not with me),
How do I breathe (how do I breathe)?
How do I breathe?

Mario Barrett (Singer)
“How Do I Breathe” (Song)
Go (Album)
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“Do You”

ne-yo_because_of_youMaybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don’t care what I have to say.
But it’s been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I’m trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can’t be.
I’ll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congratulations.
Heard that you just had a baby girl.
If she looks anything like her mother,
She’s the prettiest thing in the world.
Swear that I’m not tryin’ to start no trouble.
Tell your fiance he can relax.
I’ll leave you alone for good I promise,
There’s a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don’t mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Ne-Yo (Singer)
“Do You” (Song)
Because Of You (Album)
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“I Miss You”

blink_182_blink_182(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We’ll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we’ll wish this never ends
We’ll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you and I’m so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don’t waste your time on me you’re already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]

(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]

blink-182 (Band)
“I Miss You” (Song)
blink-182 (Album)
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“When You’re Mad”

ne-yo_in_my_own_wordsIt’s just the cutest thing
When you get to fussing (cussing)
Yelling and throwing things
I just wanna eat you up
I don’t mean no disrespect
When I start staring
Knowing that it makes you madder (uh, oh)
I’m sorry but seeing you mad is so sexy

[Hook]
Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil’ way you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain’t sure, but one thing that I do know is

[Chorus]
Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy
When you’re mad

Baby, don’t think I don’t take you seriously
But I just can’t help the fact that your attitude excites me (so exciting)
And you know ain’t nothing better
Then when we get
Mad together and have angry sex (I’ll blow you out)
Then we forget what we were mad about

[Hook]
Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil’ way you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I’m not sure, but one thing that I do know is

[Chorus 2x]
Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy

Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
Baby when you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
And when we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don’t know why it’s like that
But you’re just so damn sexy
When you’re mad

Ne-Yo (Singer)
“When You’re Mad” (Song)
In My Own Words (Album)